Requiem for a dream

So it's finally over. After all this time, it's over.
It was probably over a long time ago but I had to fight, didn't I? I had to fight for what I wanted.
I was testing destiny even though I don't believe in it. I kept saying, "One more chance... just one more. Nothing comes easy." Destiny, my dear, you won.
Even the most determined of people have a last straw and today I reached mine. I don't want to believe that the world is cruel. I don't want to believe that all the world conspires to take away from you that which you want more than anything else. I will not let go of my hope and I refuse to believe that we are all doomed but it is also true that today it's all over... It might have ended a long time ago but today, it ended for me.
I'm not angry, I'm not broken. I'm fine. I'm going to mourn that which died today and move on to greater things.
Today I declare for all the world to know: I give up. I'm disarmed. I give up. You can stop now.